Which step along Abinidi’s path burned into his mind the reality of exactly how the last sentence would read?
“…having sealed the truth of his words with his death.”
When did Mormon begin to anticipate the feelings of a hunted man, sorrowing for millions, who’s last struggle and final moments are only quietly hinted at?
“And my father also was killed by them…”
When during that dark night did knowledge of the price that he would pay sink fully into Teancum’s mind?
“And it came to pass that Teacum in his anger did go forth…”
It is doubtless out of love that God at times offers some slight foretaste of the path ahead. Yet, anticipated pain, although just a foreshadow, still hurts. Why do we still step forward while knowing the cost, while beginning to ache with the pain?
“I will go and do what the Lord hath commanded…”
When we turn to heaven with pleading hearts and find ourselves quietly pushed to our knees where stone after stone of responsibility, along with the accompanying heartache, is placed into our pack, the struggle to rise is exceeded only by awareness of the future cost of each step up the mountain.
“Oh Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever.”
It is during these moments when, with every stumbling step forward, it seems that only tear-soaked prayers accompany each effort that WE learn what price we are willing to pay for our discipleship.
“I will not fail thee nor forsake thee.”
We choose to walk the path directed remembering that even the Son of God asked if there was not some another way.